electronic music is a major key, need to keep on at that, cures.

STIFF MUSCLES AGAIN, CAN'T EVEN LIE DOWN RIGHT, OR SIT RIGHT. FUCKS UP ALL MOTOR SKILLS AND SLOWS ME WAY DOWN. TORTURE, IMPOSED TORTURE - ALL BECAUSE I AM CORRECT IN MY VIEWS ON THE ENVIRONMENT AND HEALTH.

tribunal tomorrow, where they decide if ur on cto or not, and if so then what kind of cto. nightmare. i want to just get back to my life of smoking ganj and drinking wine etc, and listening to music, and typing online ans surfing. not doing any harm. while i'm on meds i can't study or have a job anyway, cause of how they affect me. so, what is the difference then, there is none. to be productive in society, i have to not be on meds, so i can actually do anything. obviously.

back pain is here again, as soon as i ate food it returned. need painkillers that work and physiotherapy. this bad health is all cause of the anti-psychotic meds.

psychiatry is insane - they treat u with toxins that fuck u up in the body, and they have not even tested u to see if u have a chemical imbalance that meds can work to change into what they claim is normal brain chemistry. no tests, it is all done blind, they prescribe the most dangerous drugs imaginable without even testing to see what ur biochemistry is. all the tests i have had done come up normal so how am i needing depot or pills then, to make me 'normal part of society' - it's a sham. they say cannabis is dangerous, when it is them who are giving out and forcing actually harmful drugs onto me

back problem vanished, moved to knees, and upper legs and ass area, muscles all contracted, can't relax them

really bad, knees fucked, can only stand and walk, crouch down to ype this, knees fucked can't straighten legs can't sit down can't lie down, all this cause of the depot it is poison killing me


driving is just the same, everything else needs relearned - even sleeping. i have forgotten how to move my body into a comfortable sleeping position on my side. the depot has been postponed - hopefully won't have it again ever, i can take pillls instead tho i don't need them cause i'm not para schizo. so it seems that is why my legs are now uncramped for first time since ages. a bit of sleep on my back with legs straight out - i never sleep that way, i always sleep on my sides. sometimes wake up on my back of course. having moved during sleep. 

 catatonic states and impulses, stuck, 


plus everything i do causes back pain - very sore like heartburn at the back of the heart. hot food and drink seems to make it worse, eating makes it worse too. 

severe motor skills impairment from meds. why can't i sit at a computer and just surf or read webpages anymore? what do the meds do that make that impossible. i immediately strart feeling like i need to stand up and turn around. why always needing to move about instead of staying put. makes no sense. also the meds make it like being stoned when u can't do normal shit like prepare food properly. 

finally got a doctor with a brain to do a report on me, so good news there

i pick up stuff from other people, tourettes empath

since 2nd november no sleep, got way worse, 40 days and counting

leg cramp nightmare, sore back nightmare too. make it stop. got to get me back again as i was before i got sectioned = healthy, nothing wrong with me

my thighs are constantly cramped, i can't lie down or sit down, no sleep ever, can't watch tv even, so fuck all to do on the ward. nightmare. i should be on valiums or similar for muscle relaxant reasons. never do weed if ur on fluxopent-something, it makes u trip balls, major brown acid casualty. 

i think the pain side of this has come about due to being forced to be non-organic food eats and drinks. then just going along with that. back to fully organic and vegetarian then.

worse, now i fucked up and took ganj and it had a bad side effect with the depot, while out on a pass, now i will never get out, cause they all know i had to get self admitted to hospital, plus my weed is all gone, my dad? must have taken it while i was out at the hospital a & e.

and i had to cancel my tribunal lawyer cause i am still tripping balls from ganj + depot, now i am never getting out...



it is like bad speed street drugs = the depot injection of ''anti psychotic'' meds

can't use my own bed properly either

bad acid = depot injections or pills


I have been put on a depot of Flupentixol but it affects me like
taking bad street drugs, like bad LSD, the doctor won't listen to me.
I also have severe back pains since I was sectioned on November 2nd,
it is an old pain that has flared up again because of uncomfortable
beds and furniture at the ward I am at (Langhill clinic, Greenock,
IRH, AAU ).

I don't understand if this is a common thing with depots of
Flupentixol - do people turn into total fragged in the head like has
happened to me? I do nothing but pace the ward and outside, there is
nothing to do there, and I can't join in the art class and relaxation
classes anymore due to the back pain. I am not happy being stuck on
painkillers that don't even work well.

My doctor is Dr Raj. He won't listen to me though and only cares about
stopping me smoking cannabis and not giving out medication that can be
abused. I am slowed down very much and even typing this email is
difficult and hurts my back too.


I am under a section 44 extended, interim CTO, and tribunal for the
2nd opinion doctor is on 18th December.

I can barely do anything I used to be able to do, everything is so
slowed down. I have lost all creativity. I had none of these problems
before being sectioned, never paced, wasn't slow, did everything for
myself. I got sectioned for the wording of email complaints I sent to
the local council, have been in trouble before due to Communications
Act law. They said they sectioned me to avoid me being arrested again
due to similar things - I go off my head and rant in emails and
sometime speak to people about noise pollution and environmental
issues, and they say I do so inappropriately. I don't swear or
anything, I just accuse them of weird things, to get their attention
and in an analogy manner.

How do I get off the depot of this drug? I am not paranoid

schizophrenic as they have labelled me as, and that is why the depot
is having such bad side effects. I can't walk properly sometimes too,
it is like I have forgotten how to walk, if that makes any sense.

I am in touch with Circles Network, local advocacy, but as yet it has
made no difference to the doctors opinion.



I cannot sit still long enough if at all, have to keep moving all the
time, can't just sit and watch TV etc, which is all there is to do on
the ward.

Also since being admitted to the clinic, I have constant blood in my
nose and way more very dry snot, I am very worried about all these
side effects and that nobody is taking them seriously. I can't even
sit down for a minute I just have to keep pacing, even when I am
allowed out on a pass, like justnow I am at my family home online. It
is so bad and I don't know what to do.


Sorry for bad punctuation, I am using commas just because it's easier
to type that way.


MK-ULTRA & FAKE NEWS ETC - THEY MUST JUST BE MADE UP THEN

WTC 7 - IT MUST HAVE JUST FALLEN DOWN ALL ON ITS OWN THEN

OH AND HOLISTIC HEALING, SUCH AS RADIONICS, AND SOUND HEALING, AND THE ENTIRE PARANORMAL IN GENERAL - ALL MUST JUST BE FIGMENTS OF PEOPLES IMAGINATIONS ACCORDING TO THE POLICE

 EVEN SCIENCE HAS SHOWN IN MANY DIFFERENT EXPERIMENTS THAT PLANTS ARE CONSCIOUS. THEY CAN EMPATHISE WITH OTHER LIFEFORMS, FFS.


https://orionmagazine.org/article/world-gone-mad/- PSYCHOPATHS DON'T RECOGNISE GAIA AS A LIVING CONSCIOUS BEING

https://earther.gizmodo.com/lawns-are-an-ecological-disaster-1826070720 - JUST STOP MOWING ETC ENTIRELY, HUMANS NEVER NEEDED TO DO THAT BEFORE DID THEY

https://www.jesus-is-savior.com/Bible/niv_exposed.htm



 THE EARTH IS FLAT

IT'S A SATANIC CONSPIRACY TO ABUSE GOD /NATURE / THE GRAIL, HIDE WHAT CREATION IS ACTUALLY LIKE, SO THEY CAN USE GAIA FOR RESOURCES.

IF THE EARTH WAS A SPHERE OR SPEHEROID THEN THE MOON WOULDN'T CHANGE ORIENTATION AT DIFFERENT LATITUDES.

AND WHERE ARE THE PICTURES OR FILM OF FAR AWAY BUILDINGS ETC ON THE CURVE, LEANING AWAY FROM YOU...

SATELLITES. ANY PHOTOS OF THEM IN ORBIT? ANY FOOTAGE OF THEM LAUNCHING AND TAKING UP THEIR POSITIONS? NOPE.

SPACE IS COMPLETED FAKED. NO GRAVITY - EVEN SCIENCE ADMITS THAT IS FAKE (INVENTED DARK MATTER SO THEIR IDIOT EQUATIONS ABOUT STICKY WATER SOMEHOW ADHERING TO RAPIDLY ROTATING SPHERES HURTLING THRU ZERO-G SPACE MAKES ANY FUCKING COHERENT SENSE), ISS ETC FOOTAGE - ALL FAKED, BADLY. 

YEAH SURE - ALTHOUGH YOU CAN SEE THE STARS, CLAIMED TO BE HUNDREDS OF MILLIONS OF LIGHT YEARS AWAY, IN FOCUS WITH YOUR NAKED EYE - YOU APPARENTLY CAN'T FOCUS IN ON PLANETS VERY WELL WITH A GROUND TELESCOPE..

'APPARENT' RETROGRADE MOTION OF PLANETS.....OR - THEY ACTUALLY DO MOVE BACKWARDS AND LOOP AROUND. CAUSE THERE'S NO WAY THAT DUE TO THEIR MOVING FASTER OR SLOWER THAN EARTH, THAT WILL MAKE THEM APPEAR TO BE STATIONARY OR ORBIT THE OTHER WAY



https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCz81IIi1Fu_TRUvrc_iiVDA


THE WASTER SOCIETY HAS TO BE ANNIHILATED,



One of the world's largest banks says the planet is running out of resources and warns that neither governments nor companies are prepared for climate change. The world spent its entire natural resource budget for the year by August 1, a group of analysts at HSBC said in a note that cited research from the Global Footprint Network (GFN). That means that the world's citizens used up all the planet's resources for the year in just seven months, according to GFN's analysis. "In our opinion, these findings and events show that many businesses and governments are not adequately prepared for climate impacts, nor are they using natural resources efficiently," the HSBC analysts said in the note. Many banks and asset managers have started factoring climate risks into their decision-making - a move spurred in part by former New York City Mayor Michael Bloomberg. But it's far less common to see multinational banks sound the alarm about climate change so explicitly in their equity research. To calculate Earth's natural resource budget, GFN considers the demand for natural resources - which includes food, forests, and marine products - as well as humans' effects on the environment from factors like carbon emissions. The combined total is designed give a comprehensive picture of humanity's global footprint. Earth Overshoot Day , the point in a year at which we use up a year's worth of resources, has been steadily moving forward in time since GFN first started tracking it. In 1970, we "overshot" Earth's resource budget by only 2 days - Overshoot Day fell on December 29, according to HSBC. That date has been pushed up by almost five months since then. HSBC's note also warned about extreme events resulting from heat, including the wildfires in Scandinavia and broken temperature records around the world. "As scientists work on attribution analysis for specific events - the general consensus is that climate change is making these events more likely to occur and more severe," HSBC said. The predicted effects of climate change are starting to become real. Wildfires have torn through California in recent years, and they're part of a worsening trend related to rising global temperatures. Other consequences include increased frequency of hurricanes and flooding , melting ice sheets , and greater numbers of heat waves . Recent studies have shown that global temperatures by the year 2100 could be up to 15% higher than the highest projections from the Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change. According to HSBC, extreme events have severe economic and social costs. "In our view, adaptation will move further up the agenda with a growing focus on the social consequences," the analysts said.


 

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